Saturday, July 17, 2010

Question about heart.

"i love you..."
That's the last sentence that came from his mouth just view minutes before to me. At that moment, i was thinking to say, "i love you too.."
But then, i was thinking again. If i say that, will it be enough? For him, maybe that's all he wants to hear.
But for me, it's not enough..

I've said it to one person before. I thought it was enough. But then, it doesn't even mean anything now.

For this guy, that already gave his soul for me.. his heart.. Should i say the same thing to this guy as the word that i've said to the previous person?
I don't think so.

I think the words, "i love you too" is not enough to express what i feel.
But the problem is, i can't find the right words to say to him.

Should i say, "i'm all about you baby.." ?
Umm, No. It's to bias for me and i'm just too idealist to say that.
There's no such of thing like that.
There's "i'm all" hahaha.
Enough of idealistic.

I still can't find the proper words for him.
Not that i don't love him, or don't appreciate what he feels to me.
I do love him.
It's just, i think it's not enough for me.
He's worth more than that.

I've learnt. From my prev relationship, i was like all about him. But then i realize, it blinds me.
All about someone... is not good.

For this guy, i's not just love.
It's worth more than that.

I don't feel that i have to be with him.
I just feel that, i will be happy with him.

I think it's good not to be all about someone. Cause by not all about someone, you wont feel too much.
Vice versa, you will feel that you don't have to be with him. No push of anything.
But, by feel that you don't have to, you will find the honesty of your own feeling.. of your own heart.

That's what i feel for him.
I'm free of being who i am. Free to control my own heart.
And my heart is telling me that,
i will be happy with him.

But another question remains.
Is this enough for him?

1 comment:

PankaGumilang said...

it's more than enough for me, baby.. i love you because i found a joy to loving you..